I remember sitting in a restaurant April 2015 scribbling some thoughts in a notebook about the wise men. I don’t exactly remember when I started asking questions about the wise men but this moment was memorable because the waitress asked if I was an author and I responded; “Yes!” It surprised me a little because it was my first public declaration that I was an author. I had always written but never thought of myself as an author. Little did I realize that a few short weeks later I would be without a job and navigating for me uncharted waters.
It was a scary time for me and my family. The career I had spent 16 years building was finished, one moment I had it and the next moment it was gone. The first weeks of questioning what to do, I came up with nothing. Although from my perspective I thought I was marketable, no doors seemed to open. What I began to realize is all my hopes, dreams and aspirations had been tied to that career. That career had become my very identity. I embodied everything good about the organization and now it was gone and I was left empty. I tried to put on a happy face but deep down I was scared to death and wasn’t sure what to do. The only things that kept me going were my pride, my family and a belief that God had a purpose for me.
I learned a lot of lessons over the ensuing months but it required closing the door on life as I knew it. Walking away from my career 100% and not looking back, selling a home and moving to another state. Living on the floor of my in-laws, attending job interviews begging for a job from my former associates, and wandering what seemed to be aimlessly were all humbling. My wife and I tried our best to make plans but nothing seemed to fit or work out.
Here I am a year later in a home I did not chose for myself, with a book I only penned, connections that I would not have formed and a life I only could have dreamed. I express gratitude for that restaurant a year ago where I said I was an author. I express gratitude that heavens star for me was brighter than any of my stars. I believe that we step into our purposes, we choose our stars and as we act in faith we will have the most marvelous journey of our lives.